10 December 2012
As some could tell from the image. Yes, I'm rather irritated.
Sometimes, people expects me to be the perfect daughter/niece/friend/etc (the list goes on) I'm sorry for being human, i am not perfect. I have my limits of tolerating the amount of nonsense i can handle in one day.
Some says that i have a calm composure and doesn't fret over minor issues. Yes, though i don't... When it actually bottles up slowly, i do get angry. Though those things are of no significance to me... But it happened to have met me when i was in a bad mood.
Yknow what... Actually i know what is the problem.
I try to be someone else so badly to reach someone else's expectations. Be it home or outside, I never seem to be myself. I tried to be myself, but that just put me in a situation where i become very vulnerable, not a good idea.
"Who will open their arms for me when i fall?"
I may be good at giving advises to people who need some guidance but who will guide me if i were to fall was down into hell. I'm always sweeping my problems underneath carpets and try not to dust them out again.. Yes, I admit. I am a coward. I don't have the courage to face myself.
I just wish someone can be there for me.