13 December 2012
Okay, excuse the last few days. It has been a little out of hand. I guess a rock hit my head or something. I don't think i thought wrong. I believe that what ever i said and felt is myself. Myself as in the real leane. The one at home on her computer and not trying to be that leane that everyone wants to see. Though my true self can be disappointing to many, i feel that some people has to face that brutal fact.
I'm human, not a perfect being from heaven. I need my personal space and time. Sometimes i just want things to go my way, for once. Yes, i do compromise 99% of the time just to please people and not create trouble for them, but i get tired too. Imagine, trying to please every single person on the face of this planet including my family, its truly draining my soul away. Many may not think that way but i do.
But i found out something this few days. I do have friends who bothers to listen to what i have to say and actually tries to console me. When i did realize this fact, it adds warmth to the heart. I felt so relieved and touched by these people. Tears actually form and rolled down my cheeks.
Alright, lets get down to business! I have been obsessed with red lately. I keep looking at red items and red clothes and accessories. I'm loving the combination of red and black. My prom style was red and black, maybe it developed from there. Hmmm:/