17 July 2013
Why wont adults ever understand this concept.... WHY.
All I want is a some what normal childhood and a normal family. I never had that. The moment both of you decided to concentrate on working and leave me to my grandparents, you lost that chance to bond with me. We could have been close. You wont even there when i hit each milestones. What logic is this?
To be honest, I don't like any idea of living under 1 roof together. I always hated that idea. Why do you always have to make decisions for me. I just want to be a normal kid. Will you be normal parents for once and not be so KPO about your child affairs. I'm 17, I no more a baby that you are actually allowed to just walk in and out on. I can think for myself now. I have feelings too, REMEMBER?
I don't need you to tell or comment on what I do. To me, these unusual things towards others are normal to me now. I'm used to not seeing my parents for more than 2 months. I don't think about them. I don't miss them to be honest. You are there then you are there, if you are not, so be it. It doesn't exactly affect me at all actually. It seems that your status as parents in my brain has reduced to ZERO though you are my biological parents. Its out of respect I give interested in trying to work things out as a family.
This is how fucked up your daughter mind is. deal with it. I totally feel no connection between us.
REALLY? You are saying I should open up to my parents so we can bond? HELL NO. I see no point of that. I don't like people poking into my business, i don't need you to intervene in what i do, what i like and what i watch. You don't need to know. They are too insignificant to you. If my interested was important to you, you wouldn't have NOW only tried to know with me.
I am 17 now, a good 17 years already and yet you still don't know me. THATS EXACTLY MY POINT. You think you know me well, think again. I am not that "cute little leane" you once knew. I have always been crude and sick in the head. If you don't like how your daughter turned out from you 17 years of neglect... What can you do about it?
The point is, try not to be too enthusiastic about trying to get close to me. I will never make the first move. I will start on something when I already know its a waste of effort. You could try...