15 November 2014You know there will always be a period of time when you feel so down and depressed over every little thing? Every individual differs for it duration, mine is like the worst caste scenario. Its comes when it comes, it goes when it goes. I don't know what to do.
Well, I know its not PMS for sure.
My life seem to be in place for now, but I can still feel this tiny little gaping hole that cant seem to patch it up no matter what it do to it. I filled it up with all sorts of "missing" pieces to mend it, but its not going away. It has been 8 years since then.
Maybe I'm just tired from so many things. But the school term just started. I think I just need some alone time to reset my functions. I have been so focused about other stuff that I have not have the time to sit myself in my room and just relax and do my thing. but when I do get the chance, there will always be someone being in the presence.
Yes mom, I'm talking about you. You disrupt my peace when you decide to stay in my room even if its just 15 minutes. I feel uncomfortable having a foreign organism within the radius of 2m sleeping near me. Deal with it.
Having people always surrounding me sometimes its quite nauseating. Anxiety problems.
I need some ME time and not "I need to do project" "I need to be at this place" "my mother is coming over" or "I need to do this or that"
This is all driving me crazy. I wont be surprise if one day I do become crazy. I feel like going back into my shell for a week to reboot and clear all the JUNK there is to clear. I cant cope with that shit jamming my systems.
This week was bad. I didnt get me LEANE time. Its friday and its the first out of the whole week.